|
Post by speeddemon on Sept 22, 2011 13:45:25 GMT -5
August 9th,midnight Speed Demon was up in the rec room unable to sleep not from excess energy but from nightmares. She didn't get them often but when she did sleeping wasn't in in her mind. The nightmares were about the Autobots she was with fighting the Decepticons chasing them through out space. Instead of not seeing what had happened to everyone she saw them destroyed and then the Cons going after her. She couldn't fight back and ended up trapped getting closer and closer until she woke up with a gasp. Despite that it wasn't what had really happened that still had scared her. Wanting to settle down like she normally did before going to Hide for every single nightmare or scare. Yeah he was her adoptive dad but she was 15 mentally and needed to try to calm herself down. But using the rec room's tv to watch NASCAR wasn't helping her any. Speed Demon was still scared but was stubborn like any other sparkling. Still she wanted comfort even from a nightmare. But maybe a few more minutes of watching the races would help. She was to keyed up to sleep anyway.
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
|
Post by Deleted on Sept 22, 2011 13:55:29 GMT -5
Being a late nighter Sideswipe was normally up most of the time, often he would wander the base or train which on this night he was wandering the halls and deep in thought. Though as he was passing the rec room a loud gasp interrupted his train of thought and he paused, peeking in to see one of the younger bots Speed Demon seeming as if she was having a restless night. A bit concerned he skated in and came behind the couch laying a hand on her shoulder,"HEy Speed Demon you alright?" He asked gently looking at her.
|
|
|
Post by speeddemon on Sept 22, 2011 14:03:38 GMT -5
" It's just a nightmare Sideswipe nothing for you to worry about." She told him shakily sitting up trying to hold back tears. Speed Demon's doorwings twitched away constantly moving showing that she was scared. But she tried to ignore the fear no matter how real it was to her or anyone else. Being scared like she was she looked at Sideswipe tearfully still struggling not to break out into full tears and sobs.
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
|
Post by Deleted on Sept 22, 2011 15:16:44 GMT -5
Meeting her gaze Sideswipe knew that look, the restrain she was showing to know break down crying, he knew it very well. Skating around the couch he sat beside Speed Demon and offered a hand to her, a look of understanding in his optics. "Speed Demon I know what your going through with nightmares, from the COns affecting you a lot more then you think. You see I've had that same restrain when I was young, and to tell you the truth I'm hiding a lot more anger and sadness then everyone I know thinks." He admitted quietly.
Indeed he had felt much pain, much sorrow and loss yet he didn't always show it when he often forced it back. As a younger bot it had been easy but being older and just slightly more mature he had found it hard to cope with so much he had suffered now, the worse of it being unable to see his brother for long, his friend the same, failing the Autobots, and failing a colony he had so desperately tried to protect and had been left for dead that day. All of that always lingered on his mind.
|
|
|
Post by speeddemon on Sept 22, 2011 15:45:36 GMT -5
" You're hiding a lot of anger and sadness?" She asked him taking his hand as the tears started to fall down her cheeks. Her doorwings drooped showing how upset she was as she started to cling to Sideswipe. She started to cry hard for the Autobots that had sacrificed themselves so she could survive and reach Earth. Speed Demon felt horrible that none of the others she was with survived and there was nothing she could've done to help them.
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
|
Post by Deleted on Sept 24, 2011 9:12:30 GMT -5
Sideswipe held Speed Demon close, almost like a brother wold for their sister and rocked a bit to help her calm down. "Unfortunately yes Speed Demon, I may not look it but there's a lot pent up."He said quietly and gently patted her back. "Go ahead and cry it all out kid, there's nothing wrong with crying once in a while."He added gently letting her cry on his chest or shoulder if she needed to.
|
|
|
Post by speeddemon on Sept 24, 2011 12:49:39 GMT -5
" Everyone I was with to get here are all gone and I couldn't help anyone of them. They all died protecting me." Speed Demon sobbed clinging to the older mech letting him comfort her. She buried her face into his chest as the tears wouldn't stop nor the sobs that wracked her body. She couldn't calm down as fast as she wanted to but she had fought the need to cry for to long. Speed Demon needed to let out all of the pain she felt one way or another and this was it. If she had to she would call for her adoptive father if Sideswipe couldn't get her to calm down.
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
|
Post by Deleted on Sept 25, 2011 8:29:45 GMT -5
"Speed Demon again I know it's hard, all of us feel like that at one point or another but not everything is lost. Here you have friends who will help and protect you, we support each other in any way we can."Sideswipe said assuringly resting a hand under her chin and lifting her face so she would look at him. "If it hadn't been for these guys here on Earth I would have caused some serious damage from a vengeful streak. BUt now I'm even finding myself attempting other bots who went through the same thing, including you."HE said/
|
|
|
Post by speeddemon on Sept 25, 2011 10:06:02 GMT -5
" I know but it still hurts. Even with Ironhide adopting me the pain won't go away. I want the pain to stop." Speed Demon told him through her tears starting to shake from how upset she was. She was trying to calm down but couldn't no matter how hard she tried to stop the tears which made her shake. On top of that she was tired from not being able to sleep which didn't her emotionally. She felt drained which never had happened to her before.
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
|
Post by Deleted on Sept 26, 2011 16:09:17 GMT -5
Sideswipe didn't know how to help Speed Demon, he was never good at calming the younger bots and sometimes he said the wrong things and made it worse. Thinking he tried to find some way to make her feel a bit better,"Speed Demon not all is lost. Like you said you have Ironhide and bots like me, we're your family no matter what and if anything I see ya almost like a sister since well I was a lot like you at your age." He said trying to help her see a brighter side to this.
|
|
|
Post by speeddemon on Sept 26, 2011 17:00:06 GMT -5
" You were like me and you see me as a sister?" Speed Demon asked him through her tears. She started to cling to Sideswipe even more as the tears started to slow down exhausted from crying so hard. Speed Demon wanted nothing more to be part of a family that wouldn't pass her off to someone else and she found that here. She was adopted by an adult mech that wanted her as his own and now Sideswipe was acting like an older brother. She didn't even know if she even had a real brother and if she did was he alive?
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
|
Post by Deleted on Sept 28, 2011 17:52:58 GMT -5
Sideswipe chuckled,"I can't tell you how many times me and my twin brother Sunstreaker got into trouble, we were good students just pranksters and a nuisance. Even Ironhide had a hard time, roughed us up a bit but other then that we came out as some of the best duo you ever saw." He said with a smile hoping to help her laugh at least or even smile. Though he left out the parts of the darker sides of his life since he knew it'd only upset her again."Point is Speed Demon you do have a family and we're here whenever you need someone, even Optimus is willing to listen." Sideswipe said.
But he thought of his own problems and inwardly scolded himself, he was being a hypocrite right there. Sideswipe went to no one for his problems but instead had snuck high grade more often lately, getting drunk off his aft until he collapsed and ended up with a serious hangover. If the others knew, especially Ironhide, he'd be in some manor trouble.
|
|
|
Post by speeddemon on Sept 28, 2011 22:05:40 GMT -5
" Don't know if Hide will be rough with me. I adopted him as my dad and he took to that like he was meant to be a dad. Of course not sure how he would act if he saw me like this." Speed Demon laughed a little as the tears continued to slow down. She knew that he liked to give her love and affection but he never saw her in full blown tears.
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
|
Post by Deleted on Sept 29, 2011 15:48:31 GMT -5
“Nah he might not, he’s always going easy on the sparklings or some of those he has a soft spot for though for warriors he’ll be tough on us.” Sideswipe said and rubbed his head remembering several times he had been hit, thrown against a wall or some sort, or just plain body slammed and tossed about by his old mentor. Primus his whole frame hurt just thinking about it! “Trust me you have no idea what it’s like to train with ‘Hide, even Optimus trained with him and got knocked about.” He said shuddering from the memories of those days.
|
|
|
Post by speeddemon on Sept 29, 2011 18:57:50 GMT -5
" Well he's started to train me and I found it to be fun. Hide seemed to be having fun too after what seemed like he rarely had any fun. And after the training he carried me to his room and let me sleep with him. So I know he loves me and he might go easy on me. But I'm always on the move so we will see." Speed Demon told him her door wings drooping from being tired. She was to keyed up to really sleep though emotions and nightmares did a number on her processor.
|
|